[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Sunday, October 20, 2013

[[many a time]]

there were a lot of times which i thought abt picking up and studying jap again.. each time i said and told myself, "this time i'm not giving up".. and yet, i nv lasted each time.. ahahaha.. ^_^->" that time has come once again, the time when i pick up my many jap notes and start revising.. will it last this time?

i have been giving a lot of thought to it since the start of october.. especially since i found quite a lot of philosophical phrases and songs that encourages me.. i like quite a number of songs by a particular japanese singer.. unfortunately, the lyrics to most of her songs contain quite complicated kanji, and it makes me want to be improve on my jap so i can understand the lyrics..

recently i enjoyed chatting with a colleague who happened to like philosophical phrases as well.. and it turned out that her character is quite like me too, being more on the cautious side? too bad she's leaving soon.. and with so.. the number of staff in our department dwindles again.. the no of staff in our departments is getting to the point where i can count with my 10 fingers, after excluding the higher-ups..

are things really going to be okay? i'm busy as it is now, and it's supposed to be off-peak.. i see no hope for the coming peak.. how are we going to survive the peak with so little staff? it's bad enough even during off-peak alr.. i survived the previous peak, and tt was cuz i was still doing an assistant's scope of work.. now, i'm covering practically almost everything..

i made it somehow the previous peak by listening to upbeat songs to get myself energetic before work.. i'm not confident the same method will work this time.. esp since based on the previous peak, there was a bottleneck period tt even listening to the upbeat songs did nothing to cheer me up.. in the end, it had the opposite effect, making me even more tired and depressed when listening to those songs.. i was really upset and depressed then, being unable to smile when listening to the songs i liked so much..

well, here's to hoping that i will survive the peak?

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]] *|11:52|