[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Wednesday, April 03, 2013

[[my own ending]]

had quite a bit of time to myself today.. so i ended up thinking abt a lot of things.. while waiting for my colleagues, i saw a foreign family at the lobby getting ready to leave the hotel.. the kids looked so carefree, running abt in the lobby excitedly.. how long has it been since i behaved like tt, or at least felt so carefree? juz for tt moment, i really envied them, and wished i could be like them.. was so envious tt it actually brought tears to my eyes..

one of the things i thought abt was smthg abt life from zetsuen no tempest - tt we shld not live by life's script, and create our own ending (in mashiro's words).. i always put reality 1st - studies or work.. but now, i'm gonna go after my dream, even though i'll admit i'll still get tied down by reality.. but from now onwards, my dream will take up a larger part of my life..

i always felt that i wanted to achieve the membership cuz it's where life brought me, and i've finished my exams.. getting the years of experience is something that will come along when i work, so i kinda unknowingly placed getting the membership in 1st place.. as a result i've dragged my dreams for almost 6 years alr..

but now, my dreams will be no 1.. i have too many things that i want to do.. i'm not young anymore, i don't want to keep on dragging my dreams, till one day when i find that i've really aged, and i'm still a the same spot, wishing for the same dreams as i have when i was younger..

as with one of my previous post, is it really alright to be wishing myself sick so often so i can dun go for work? i drank milk tt was gonna expire soon last night, juz a little bit, only to find tt it had spoiled alr.. i didn't even get any bad stomachache (besides the daily morning one)..

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]] *|21:42|