[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

[[倔すぎ？]]

i'm the type who looks at "patterns and trends" of how i've lived so far, and apply them to how i will go abt in my path in future..

it's normal to aim to work for an established firm after completing one's studies (i guess?).. i'm no different from others, so it's natural tt i tried applying to the more established companies.. i end up not hearing from them for ages, and somehow along the way, i've managed to convince myself that i dun really need to work for such a established firm.. it's not really my style to go on the fast track..

i'm not a genius, neither am i the kind who has luck to score well in exams.. my grades have always been the kind that just scrapes through, or perhaps somewhere in the middle btwn passing and doing well, though mostly the former..

so why am i trying to go on the fast track just because i finished my studies and moving on to the next milestone in my life? who am i to think that i would suddenly become someone who could do well just because i'm moving on to another area?

with that, i came to the conclusion that it's the same working in a medium sized firm too.. i'll juz have to go the hard way of asking someone to be my mentor, do the stuff required and not go the shortcut that i would be able to accomplish if i was in an established company..

yet why... every time i get settled down, a chance for an established company comes? and this time there was 2.. it's prob a bit late to say this now since i rejected both offers, but could the 2nd one have come cuz i rejected the 1st one? could i have blown my last chance?

am i too stubborn for my own good?

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