[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Sunday, August 05, 2012

[[desire]]

decided... not to continue tt job.. it's hard to say why exactly, but i juz dun feel..... like i'll work long there.. so kim and dina were saying no use continuing if i have no plans to stay there long-term... well, partly it's also cuz the pay's not really what i want, and i got an interview with one of the acca approved employers.. of cuz, it's not a given or guarantee that i'll be able to secure a job with them.. it's juz an interview.. there is a chance that i'll go back job-searching after i quit, if i dun get the job...

honestly, i spent the whole thurs night aft work and wkend agonizing what to do... even chatted one hr plus on the phone with kim and dina on thurs night.. but i guess, i shld be braver and go for what i really really want.. a job that pays me better, and one tt i feel okay in.. hmm, i'm someone who quite goes along with feelings, so.. i guess i juz din really get a gd or comfortable feeling with this co... papa said i looked terrible on the 1st day of work when i came back.. what my lips were white, i look extremely tired (i was really feeling tired though, haha) and tt i looked like i got bullied like tt (well, i didn't)..

and also, it's not good if i dun feel good with the co right from the beginning right? feeling stressed after the interview juz thinking "if i got the job", and agonizing over the ctt? but tt was also cuz i got the interview invitation from the acca approved employer la.. all these will prob sound like excuses now that i've decided to quit.. but things will juz get worse if i alr dun feel gd with the co from the start ba?

i want to find a co that i'm willing to work for a long long time,, one that i'm willing to slog my life out for.. i want to have a meaningful and well, (how shld i say this) 充實 work life, one that i feel that is on par with the seiyuus that i admire so much.. it may not seem like it, but i think the seiyuus really do put in a lot of effort to put up what the audience sees and enjoy.. tt's why in a way, their work life is really, busy yet 充實.. it's like, they really do put in everything they have for the work they do.. i'm not sure how to say, and i know i'm not doing the feelings justice.. but it's juz, i can't help but admire them watching them work..

i want to be able to look back on my work life and feel the same way.. in a way, i think the audit industry would put me in a busy position like them, and i can put in all my effort into the work i enjoy.. but to do that, i muz 1st find a co that i'm happy with..

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