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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

[[time to let go]]

it's tt time of the year again.. tt time to reunite with the toilet floor again.. ever since uni yr 2, i've always cried to relieve stress.. the 1st time i cried because of stress was in jc 1 though, to be honest.. i was worried and stressed out tt i wouldn't be able to advance cuz i kept failing econs and physics, and i was esp worried abt physics.. tt was the 1st time i cried cuz of stress, and i really felt so much better after crying.. aft tt, for some reason i prob wasn't so stressed out for the actual 'A' levels (LOL), or maybe i was but wasn't aware of it.. or maybe the stress was converted to those weird horribly painful stomach aches i started having..

aft tt was uni alr.. it was only in uni yr 2 tt i realised how impt results and scores were, and so tt was prob the time i started to really concentrate on studying ba.. i seriously dunno what i've been doing before tt, haha.. had i really been studying? and yep, aft tt realisation, i started to study seriously, and aft tt breakdown ard the bubble tea incident, i officially have the habit of crying everytime it's near exam time..

however, i dun really have much memory of crying much during this period of studying acca.. maybe i get stronger aft each round, and it became harder for me to cry each time.. tt may be the reason, but i think it was also Kondou-san's words tt helped pull me through.. his words helped make me stronger, and probably everytime i wanted to cry, i told myself not to waste

time crying, and to concentrate on studying.. maybe tt's why i didn't cry much for these 2 semesters of studying acca..

but this last time, i want to try crying whenever i want to.. i'm so tired of trying hard everytime.. perhaps i will do better if i try letting go...

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