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Saturday, May 08, 2010

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well, half my exams are officially over now.. whee~ i tot i would feel happy since i haf abt 2 wks to study, then 2 more papers are done and i'm free.. but why dun i feel happy at all?

one more thing.. my senses are really getting dull.. i tot i would feel nervous or anxious nearer to the exams, and i didn't.. on the 1st day of the paper, i tot tt i might start feeling nervous nearer to the exam hall, maybe juz before the paper, maybe when i see the actual yet to be flipped open paper in front of me? but NONE.. i totally didn't feel nervous or anxious.. not even when i flipped open the paper and read the qns.. the only emotion i felt was anxiousness a few stops before expo mrt station.. and the root of that anxiousness came from, my lack of anxiousness of exams that others have, and i lack it..

abt 2 more wks to go, 2 more papers.. i'm feeling depressed for some reason.. maybe it's the music.. i shld change to a more upbeat, cheerful, motivating one to motivate myself for the last 2 papers.. dis yr totally no exam mood.. i haf no confidence... dis yr's revision and studying mood is totally different from the past 2 yrs.. i'm like so slack dis yr.. although my dad says it's good tt i'm relaxed, then i won't be nervous when doing the paper, since nervousness sometimes wreck u in exams.. tt i can understand.. when i had my poa paper in uni yr 1, the fear, the anxiousness, tt feeling of doom looming over u tt i experienced during my poa in o levels came rushing back to me the moment i flipped open the paper, and my mind went blank.. naturally i scored horribly for it, though i managed to scrape thru.. tt's the only paper i'm not happy abt.. i could score full marks during normal class tests and assignments.. why during the actual paper...

oops, i tink i went off-track.. haha.. but the thing is, because i'm damn slack dis yr during revision and stuff, i guess u can say i'm feeling uneasy abt the results? maybe as my dad say, maybe i'll do even better w/o all the stress.. but i tink i'd still feel a little bit better if i at least feel some sense of urgency, or a little bit of stress.. oh well.. i still haf 2 wks.. maybe i'll take a rest today, re-charge, and start working tmr.. wif some motivating upbeat music...

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