[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

[[pulled or strained muscle? T_T]]

the small thigh of my right leg felt strained and pulled ever since i walked home on fri.. it's always this stretch of muscle tt feels tight and being pulled when i walk.. feels like, tt stretch of muscle became shorter, so feels v strained and stretched when i walk.. had the same prob over the wkend and today if i walk too much, or stand too long.. too much and too long meaning abt 20+ mins.. i seriously dunno wad's the problem.. and i've been having backaches these days too.. i tink it's related to the aching in my leg.. i know i shldn't be walking too much, but i still walked home today aft sch.. which i soon regretted.. i had to rest at the bus stop once, and had another rest at the park.. if i continue to push myself to walk while it feels strained, aft sometime the whole leg feels like going numb, and i'm forced to take a rest.. so a walk tt i used to take 20+ mins to finish extended into abt 40 mins.. and still suffering every time i got up to walk aft resting.. i had to push myself to walk fast since my leg wasn't hurting.. pushing myself to walk asap while my leg doesn't hurt, try to cover as much distance as i can..

once again, i blasted h.i.t to help me thru the difficult times.. tt song is really gd to listen while trying to push urself.. very motivating.. haha.. thanks kyu, kangin, hae, wookie, yesung and sungmin.. =) and there was dis tiny thought in my mind: "kangin i'm suffering wif u.. we're going to get over dis obstacle.." while walking and suffering wif the pain in my leg.. hoping tt my suffering would help kangin lessen his suffering, hoping to share some of the suffering he's supposed to go thru.. and yes i know i'm thinking too much.. but it's true.. and i hope it did in some way.. =) it may seem stupid to think of it this way since it's juz some muscle ache.. but really, the pain is not something u can juz imagine.. there were times where i wanted to cry cuz of the pain.. though i really wonder if i shld go see a doc.. my small thigh hurts every time i press it.. my dad juz tells me to exercise more (which i can't exercise for long cuz it hurts) and massage my leg...

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