[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

[[starving + mixed feelings]]

recently, i've not been eating lunch at work.. haha.. cuz the only stall i ate at wasn't open since last thurs.. and beginning dis wk, i purposedly skipped lunch as long as i didn't feel hungry by lunch time.. instead, i hung out at the lib.. when i go back to work and feel hungry? drink water.. i tot by drinking lots and lots of water i would feel full.. but apparently not... i still felt hungry, though it's not tt bad ba i guess haha.. maybe i shld take smthg more solid like soft drinks.. they are gassy! they'll prob make me feel more full compared to plain water.. wait... soft drinks aren't solid.. but it's the carbonated water tt solidly makes me feel full.. but carbonated water is liquid... or is it the gaseous state? now u know why i din take chem in jc.. i fail at chem.. haha..

i dunno why, but recently dis weird thought keeps swirling and popping up in my mind, making me feel useless and tt i've wasted my 21 yrs of life.. throughtout the whole 21 yrs of living, there are many times i think "i want to be able to xxxxx."but i've nv really been able to accomplish any of those.. thus me feeling useless and wasted.. but i guess at least now it's a driving force tt makes me more determined to at least make smthg out of my remaining life.. =)

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]] *|19:36|