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Friday, April 24, 2009

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had a major breakdown a few days ago, tues to be exact.. i had several small breakdowns earlier, but seems like those weren't enough.. i'm the kind who keeps everything cooped up in my heart, without telling anybody my troubles.. well, i do haf some ppl to talk to when i'm troubled.. but... tt's the same as keeping everything to myself.. haha.. (sorry guys, don't mean it tt way.. u guys are still v impt to me, helping me go thru hard times..) actually i'm kinda grateful tt i had tt major breakdown on tues.. it's as if i let everything out, and i guess i feel much better.. my moods during those few days were really quite bad.. the only thing i din like abt tt breakdown, was tt my dad witnessed it.. well, he was the trigger too.. haha.. i dun like showing ppl my weak side, not even my family.. it's worse since it's my dad who saw (and triggered) my breakdown.. he'd get very worried and keep asking qns abt why i broke down (which was wad actually happened too).. haix.. well, most of the time i juz kept quiet & answered no to all his qns.. i juz wanted to haf time alone to recover and calm down, but wif my dad there persistantly asking qns i juz couldn't.. maybe i shld haf kept quiet and let him ask his qns.. he might get the hint and leave.. haha.. i know by answering no to his qns, he would juz remain being very worried.. which he did persuade me to tell him cuz he said i'd make him worry.. O.O i was kinda surprised tt he actually admitted it.. haha.. my idea of my family is tt my parents are actually quite traditional, so i didn't think he would admit tt he was worried.. maybe it's partly tt traditional mindset tt i'm so old-fashioned & traditional in my thinking too.. anw back to main point, it's not tt i didn't want to tell him the reason, but even i myself also dunno the reason.. maybe i shld haf juz come out wif something and get him to buzz off.. haha.. i guess he was really worried, since the nxt day when i went out he called me to see tt i was at my destination alr (as usual) and he asked it i was okay.. well, back to the main point.. i always knew i'm the kind who keep everything to myself, and when i can't bear it, i break down and relieve everything.. but this time's one was kinda serious, as so it seems.. oh well, everything's over now.. time to concentrate.. hopefully.. haha..

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