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Monday, February 23, 2009

[[depression --> motivation]]

earlier on friday, i was feeling depressed.. by the fact tt i'll prob nv see him wif my own eyes.. it's really quite hard and impossible for china grps to break into sg mkt.. i was getting depressed tt i'm only able to see him thru the computer screen, and somehow i got the feeling tt i'm not worthy to be his fan (dun ask me why).. but now i'm trying to turn it into a source of motivation.. be motivated, try to work hard and not be distracted, working towards the goal of becoming a person worthy to be his fan.. juz like the lyrics in "漫长的约会", work hard to fulfil the promise wif that someone in the future, the one tt i'm meant to be wif.. i happened to find the song "一个人的我依然会微笑" recently.. it also motivates me.. even if i'm all alone here, i will still strive to survive, and be happy.. he prob wouldn't want his fan to be unhappy.. haha.. go ahead and tell me i'm thinking too much.. =x

i tink he not only has a impact on my life, but also my character.. knowing tt he's a sincere person, i din want to let him down.. honestly, i've been avoiding some ppl's smses tt i find irritating.. well, not exactly avoiding, but juz replying later.. or maybe i was juz in a bad mood, cuz they were asking qns abt a module tt all of us are not gd in.. i know it's not their fault, but i juz can't help but haf "i also dunno, dun ask me!!!" tt kind of feeling.. ever since i knew abt him (and found him to be a sincere person), i feel bad tt i'm treating them like dis.. and i reply the msg as soon as i can.. sometimes i put up a false facade in front of ppl.. but now, i try not to put tt stupid facade up.. u can say, he makes me face my real self? haha.. i find it amusing how a stranger can impact my life so much.. and it hasn't even been one wk since i found out abt him.. as i was telling amy: "ah~ the power of love~" haha..

oh well, the main thing is, i'm not depressed anymore.. i'm gonna turn my depression into motivation, and strive to become a someone worthy to be called his fan.. ^^ oh yeah, i was juz chatting to amy on msn tt it's hard for china grps like his to break into sg mkt, and she agreed.. *omg i can't believe i actually said dis* i said: "NVM~ he dun come here i go to him~~" haha.. i swear, i juz typed dis without thinking.. haha.. *blush* wonders a stranger can do to you.. if u like him.. haha.. =D

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