[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

[[haix...]]

had no idea i was feeling stressed alr.. having 2 tests coming up, so i've been studying quite..... er, dilligently? while studying in the morning before my driving lesson, i suddenly realised i was forcing myself to study, and i wasn't happy at all.. then it occurred to me, as u grow older, the less happiness u get.. then later when i went down for lunch, my dad could tell i was feeling unhappy.. he always could.. i dunno why.. am i tt bad at lying or hiding? he always can tell when i'm really unhappy, moody or worried.. last time i worked part-time as a cashier and i'm supposed to always tally the cash in the register wif the balance before closing.. there was a time when it was missing by 100 bucks.. no matter how many times i counted it still didn't tally.. tt time i decided to give it a rest and tally the nxt night since i was working the nxt day too.. then when i got onto my dad's car he asked me the usual qn: "did the money tally?" i answered as usual, like "ya la" but then... he could tell i was weird, then he kept asking me did smthg happen, cuz he said i sounded weird.. then today he kept asking me why i look so sian when dishing out the rice.. i dun need to look particularly happy when i'm dishing out the rice right???

aft lunch haf to head to driving lesson.. i must say, i improved on today's driving lesson!!! the engine died once, and i tink everything went quite smoothly.. i juz wonder if it'd be the same nxt lesson... =x but i haf to really thank one person who "pruned" me before my driving lesson (since i was still feeling quite moody, and disturbed why my dad could tell)... REN-SAMA!!! THANK YOU!!! while on the way to bukit gombak, i suddenly thought of the time when he said the thing abt "bringing ur previous mistake to the nxt thing u do" or smthg like tt.. so i told myself to put away my moody state and dun let it disturb my driving lesson, since i was determined to make sure it went better than last wk (in the world of dying engines).. who says you dun learn anything from anime or manga?

the moody state returned to me once i stepped out of the teacher's car.. i kept listening to tt song tt i've been looking for since pri 5 on the way home.. then i realised the lyrics totally described how the world is like now.. it described the cruel world now, but still encourages u to go on.. currently my source of motivation.. digimon is the best~ *_* ignore the butterfly part and meeting someone, it only applies in the world of digimon.. =D but if really haf to apply to studying, maybe the one we're meeting is our degrees? haha.. lyrics below and here's the song:

好想化做一只蝴蝶乘著微风振翅高飞
现在马上只想赶快和你见面
烦心的事放在一边如果忘记那也无所谓
已经没有多余时间可以浪费

似乎有 wow wow~ 什麼事会在这片晴空下出现
就算是 wow wow~ 面对未知的明天勇敢去冒险

在无限延伸的梦想后面穿越冷酷无情的世界
不想要输给自己有你的美丽记忆会让我更加努力
相信爱永远不会止息即使偶尔会遇上难题
一定能化险为夷 on my love

仿佛蝴蝶展开双翼一路迎着微风飞行
直到我和你相见约定不再分离
对你倾吐我的心意没想到你真的愿意
陪着我一起沉醉在幸福的旋律

好像有 wow wow~ 什么声音悄悄从这街角响起
而现在 wow wow~ 不想再空等让憧憬变成泡影

在无限延伸的梦想后面纵然世界再虚假多变
不应该隐瞒欺骗抱着得过且过的想法太可怜
相信希望有天会实现真心能度过重重考验
朝着梦勇往直前 on my love

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