[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Friday, October 31, 2008

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i haven't really mentioned dis, but dis guy (photo below) looks like one of my male frens back in sec sch.. i tink they really look quite alike.. and i admit i used to like tt guy in sec sch... so i've been thinking, could it be tt's the reason why i like dis artist? he really looks like him.. i would say 90%, haha.. honestly, i'm always happy whenever i find a new artist tt i like.. but dis time, i'm not... it made me tired... very tired... it brought back a lot of useless yet precious memories... i think my sec sch memories (esp during upper sec) was the most fun and precious, prob cuz of him... in the end i find myself liking back tt guy... liking a guy has nv been so tired... tt fren is a foreigner, and i heard from him tt if the local unis didn't accept him, he would prob go back to attend uni in his own country.. i always wondered where he ended up... juz yest i found out tt he's still in sg.. but i'm tired alr... i'm gonna end dis once and for all... when dis month is over, i'm going to let go of any stupid and useless feelings i haf... i'm going back to the life i had before meeting you.

in the past you were my motivation to work hard... i wanted to be able to go to where u could go... i am where i am because of you.. i guess i shld haf worked hard even without you... then maybe i could haf gone to where you would be... but it's all too late... i'm even further away from you now... but even now, knowing where you are, for some strange reason, motivates me to work hard, even though it's useless... am i really so dependent on you? i was really happy at tt time, exchanging msges with you even while i was in jc.. at tt time i really tot we lost contact already.. i know tt i can't possibly not think of you at all, it's impossible to erase all memories and traces of you in my life... but at least, i'm going to stop thinking of stupid things like "what if we meet again?"

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]] *|15:27|